Time is flying by

I cant believe that it has already been just over 6 weeks since I held you for the first and last time. These past few weeks have been the most difficult weeks of my life. I know that you are now in heaven with you little sister. I still cry every night. I long to hold you in my arms again. I miss you so much. I would give anything to have you with me again. Every night I sleep with your blanket. Its the blanket that you were wrapped in when you passed away. I know one day i will get to hold you again. I love you so much! I read something that makes alot of sense to me and i really hope its true. when you loose a baby in miscarriage or early death and then go on to carry a healthy baby to bring home, its that baby that keeps trying to be born. i do know that i have 2 angels in heaven. one i have never met and one i got to meet for just a short time, and that was you Makayla. I just hope and pray every day that you forgive me. I just didnt want you to have to suffer. i wanted you to be free. and that you are.as much as it hurts me, you are free from wires and tubes. you are free from pain. no more strokes, no more seizures, no more brain bleeds or heart failure. you are now a healthy little baby in Jesus's arms. and i know he will take care of you until it is my time to take care of you.

                                                     this video reminds me of you now.